Stuck

I am still going out in spite of the Safer at Home warnings (But I don’t think it’s safe to go to restaurants yet.)  I usually go for a walk around the neighborhood, looking at gardens and  trees.  I live a few blocks from a Kroger, so I go there for my prescriptions and food.  I can get people to do that for me, and sometimes, I do.  But I want to see people, see who is wearing masks, who is complaining about masks.  I’ve always loved people watching.  And now is a very interesting time to do so.

I do take precautions.

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Can’t touch this

When I go to Kroger, I use the sidewalk on the north side of their parking lot.  It’s usually clear, though sometimes I have to move shopping carts out of the way.  And some people have started using it as a dumping ground.

When I went this week-end, someone had backed their long-bed pick-up truck with it’s back wheels right up against the sidewalk curb.  It had a trailer hitch that poked out even further on the sidewalk.  There looked to be just enough room for me to get by, but one of my electric wheelchair wheels slipped off the side walk and into the strip of mulch and struggling plants.  I couldn’t get it to move.  I was stuck.  I tried several maneuvers to get it going, but the wheel dug into the mulch and wouldn’t go forwards or backwards.

There was someone in the truck.  So I knocked on the truck.  Then I banged on it.  Whoever was in it was either hard of hearing or had earbuds in and was listening to something that kept him from hearing me.

So I took a deep breath.  Someone would come along and I could send them into the store to get some men to help me out.  It felt like I sat there a long time — time passes so slowly when you’re anxious and in need of help.  I do have people I can call to get me out of situations like this, but I thought I could find help there.

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Not Part Of the Plan by Joy Murray

Finally, a young couple walked by in the parking lot.  I yelled, “Excuse me,” and waved my arms around.  They didn’t hear or see me.  I took off my face gear and yelled again.  They heard me.  The man came running over.  I asked him to get a store employee to help me, but he thought he could do it.

He was a thin young man, and it’s a heavy chair and I’m heavy, too.  I was near a light pole, so if worse came to worst I could stand up and hold on to the pole while he moved the chair.  But we just did some back and forth moving, and he lifted it some, and then I was free.  He helped me ease by the truck.

I thanked him profusely, but he shrugged it off.  His partner asked if I was okay.  “We’re glad we could help.”

The man in the truck never moved or saw a thing.  I should have given him the evil eye, but I was so happy to be rolling again that I didn’t think about it until I was in the store.

Then, to make matters better, they had toilet paper!

So no evil eyes for anyone.  I was rescued, people treated me politely, no one laughed at me in my protection get up, and a gentle spring breeze accompanied me on my way home.

I took another way home, because I’m not risking that janky ass side walk again.

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It’s complicated by Joy Murray

I hope you stay safe and find kindness and toilet paper in life.

 

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New Painting

I sometimes see people that look so interesting that I want to paint them.  I’ve been to shy to ask, but last week, I saw a man and I did it — I asked a stranger if I could take a picture of him so I could paint him.  He said that’d be fine.  We exchanged phone numbers so I could text him the work when I finished it.

Here’s the photo:

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Deago with the golden dreds/braids

Here’s a sketch I did to get a good feel for the structure of his face:

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And here is the painting.  It’s 8×10″.  I was thinking a lot about how Black people, and Black men in particular, are still the target of so much violence from white people.  How all of us have to fight racism and violence.   So while I painted, I decided to turn him into a saint.  We are all in this together, we can all be saints.  It’s not a perfect likeness, but I enjoyed painting him.

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Saint Deago 

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Three New Paintings

It’s been hard staying focused and awake since the quarantines started.  There has been a new undercurrent of fear in our lives, in my life.  I have handled it the best I could, but I’ve not been very creative since March.  Then last week I started to paint for about an hour each day.  My actual plan was to paint for 30 minutes before dinner, kind of earn my vittles psychology. And It worked.  I began painting for longer periods of time.  I got my Rosie paintings done.  I started painting an exuberant clematis flower, and two other paintings where I just did what the paint told me.

Yesterday was a bad day for me.  A bout of depression and loneliness nibbled at me for part of the day.  Then I had a flashback to a traumatic event from over a decade ago.  Luckily, I talked to a friend, not specifically about what I was going through but about loneliness and how to manage it.  It reminded me that the past was in the past, and I really don’t have anyone in my social circle that feels threatening to me.  Even though it didn’t completely clear up my anxiety, I painted.

I got three paintings mostly finished and put the final touches on them this morning.

This one really created itself.  I started brushing off extra paint on a small 5×7″ canvas, until the colors formed a shape and then it became a story.  Definitely speaks to the anxiety I have.

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Not Part of the Plan, by Joy Murray, 5×7″ acrylic and ink ($30) SOLD

I’ve been worried the impact this pandemic is having on vulnerable children.  I always have them on my mind because I have been one and I have worked with them, using art and stories to help them sort out their lives.  This painting started out as more of a cosmic abstract, but it changed to a child.

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Star Child, by Joy Murray, 8×10″ acrylic and ink ($60)

And then I finished my clematis painting.

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Clematis, by Joy Murray, 8×10″ acrylic and ink, ($60)

 

Every day I didn’t paint, I told myself not to worry (though I did), I just needed a break and some time to process this terrible virus and the shutdown.  I needed to learn how to take care of myself during the reign of COVID 19.  And everyday I saw the clematis vine growing on my porch, and more around the corner at a neighbor’s house.  I saw a bit of spring every day.

I experienced a wide range of emotions, but again a friend and art brought me back to my self, back to where I could paint from that place where things aren’t clear, but have meaning nonetheless.

I hope you and your friends and family are doing well, too.

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Rosie Tackling Covid 19

I have a postcard of Rosie the Riveter on my kitchen wall.  And it gave me an idea of making a strong woman character for Covid 19.  When I sketched her in my sketchbook, she was too nurse like:

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And I wanted her to look like anyone, not necessarily just a health worker, so I painted this, which you’ve seen:

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Rosie the Risk Reducer, by Joy Murray, 8×10″

As the weeks have gone by and I see all these health workers being so brave and helping educate people.  They’re even standing up to protesters who don’t believe in the virus, or they don’t believe they’ll get sick.

So I went back to my original idea, with a few changes:

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Rosie the RN, by Joy Murray 8×10″

 

I’ve seen a lot of illustrations and photographs honoring health care workers, so this is one more.  All we have to do is follow a few protocols and wear masks and gloves to be heroes during this time.  I know it’s hard, and a lot of people are hurting for money and food.   It’s a worldwide crisis that hasn’t been handled well.  But we have dedicated people who are working to heal us and to keep us from ever getting sick in the first place.

I hope you stay safe and thank you for the precautions you’re taking.

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