Fall Apart Beautifully

I’ve been enjoying the big fragrant blooms of the Southern Magnolias in my neighborhood.  I’m taking pictures of them in all their phases.  I brought a few home and a friend brought me one, too.  The blooms don’t last long.  But while they are alive they send out a rich sweet aroma.  There is a sharp contrast between the white flower and the dark green leaves.  A feast for all the senses.

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The Southern Magnolia is a generous tree all year long.  It’s an evergreen, but they aren’t pines.  Their leaves are smooth and tough:  green on one side and a suede like sage on the other.  When they fall, the leaves turn a golden yellow, eventually breaking down and feeding the trees with their elements.  The life cycle illustrated in the form of a tree.

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When I was a girl, I loved the magnolia for its low branches.  It was an easy tree to climb and hide in.

Now I just enjoy them, even though most of it flowers grow much higher than I could ever reach to steal.

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In the fall, they create the most lovely cone of bright red seeds.  I always collect a few for the studio.  They stay red for a long time, over a year.

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Magnolia pod by Joy Murray

About a week ago, I was rolling home in my wheelchair and the magnolia tree that’s by the driveway dropped a bud in my lap.  It was a soft sage cone, like a little creature.

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I was enchanted, but concerned.  I didn’t want the tree to shed its buds before they bloomed.

But they bloomed and are still doing so.

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So of course, I had to paint one.

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Magnolia Dream by Joy Murray, 8×10″, acrylic on stretched canvas

Afterwards, I looked up the parts of the flower, it’s such an unusual shape.  All flowers have unusual shapes, but the floral axis of the magnolia is really remarkable.

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I found an article on Magnolias by William Friedman, director of the Arnold Arboretum at Harvard University, titled Magnolia Flowers Fall Apart Beautifully.

We are all destined to fall apart.  What if we recognized the beauty in that?   I’m not minimizing the pain and suffering we go through, but there are times when I’m out in nature and seeing the life cycle around me; I feel it in my body, the cycles of love and life and loss.

Here we are in the midst of pandemic.  I am further along in the degeneration of my disorder.  And yet a magnolia tree has given me a bud, flowers and ideas for painting.  I can follow the example of that tree, and fall apart as beautifully as possible.

 

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Memorial Day Poem

I’ve posted this poem every Memorial Day since 2013, and it still seems valid to me.

Memorial Day

To those who marched off boldly
Determined to free the world,
To those who stumbled into service
Seeking a better life,

To those who could no longer sit
Anxiously in the sidelines,
To those who only wanted to stitch the
Wounded back together,

To those who fell because
They lived along
The quickest path
To victory,

We remember. We regret.
We hope to not repeat.
Yet, even as we mourn,
A catchy tune
Lures us into war’s insatiable jaw.

I wish you peace in your after life.
A cool drink and quiet audience
For your story
And all eternity
To dream in peace.

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Stuck

I am still going out in spite of the Safer at Home warnings (But I don’t think it’s safe to go to restaurants yet.)  I usually go for a walk around the neighborhood, looking at gardens and  trees.  I live a few blocks from a Kroger, so I go there for my prescriptions and food.  I can get people to do that for me, and sometimes, I do.  But I want to see people, see who is wearing masks, who is complaining about masks.  I’ve always loved people watching.  And now is a very interesting time to do so.

I do take precautions.

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Can’t touch this

When I go to Kroger, I use the sidewalk on the north side of their parking lot.  It’s usually clear, though sometimes I have to move shopping carts out of the way.  And some people have started using it as a dumping ground.

When I went this week-end, someone had backed their long-bed pick-up truck with it’s back wheels right up against the sidewalk curb.  It had a trailer hitch that poked out even further on the sidewalk.  There looked to be just enough room for me to get by, but one of my electric wheelchair wheels slipped off the side walk and into the strip of mulch and struggling plants.  I couldn’t get it to move.  I was stuck.  I tried several maneuvers to get it going, but the wheel dug into the mulch and wouldn’t go forwards or backwards.

There was someone in the truck.  So I knocked on the truck.  Then I banged on it.  Whoever was in it was either hard of hearing or had earbuds in and was listening to something that kept him from hearing me.

So I took a deep breath.  Someone would come along and I could send them into the store to get some men to help me out.  It felt like I sat there a long time — time passes so slowly when you’re anxious and in need of help.  I do have people I can call to get me out of situations like this, but I thought I could find help there.

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Not Part Of the Plan by Joy Murray

Finally, a young couple walked by in the parking lot.  I yelled, “Excuse me,” and waved my arms around.  They didn’t hear or see me.  I took off my face gear and yelled again.  They heard me.  The man came running over.  I asked him to get a store employee to help me, but he thought he could do it.

He was a thin young man, and it’s a heavy chair and I’m heavy, too.  I was near a light pole, so if worse came to worst I could stand up and hold on to the pole while he moved the chair.  But we just did some back and forth moving, and he lifted it some, and then I was free.  He helped me ease by the truck.

I thanked him profusely, but he shrugged it off.  His partner asked if I was okay.  “We’re glad we could help.”

The man in the truck never moved or saw a thing.  I should have given him the evil eye, but I was so happy to be rolling again that I didn’t think about it until I was in the store.

Then, to make matters better, they had toilet paper!

So no evil eyes for anyone.  I was rescued, people treated me politely, no one laughed at me in my protection get up, and a gentle spring breeze accompanied me on my way home.

I took another way home, because I’m not risking that janky ass side walk again.

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It’s complicated by Joy Murray

I hope you stay safe and find kindness and toilet paper in life.

 

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New Painting

I sometimes see people that look so interesting that I want to paint them.  I’ve been to shy to ask, but last week, I saw a man and I did it — I asked a stranger if I could take a picture of him so I could paint him.  He said that’d be fine.  We exchanged phone numbers so I could text him the work when I finished it.

Here’s the photo:

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Deago with the golden dreds/braids

Here’s a sketch I did to get a good feel for the structure of his face:

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And here is the painting.  It’s 8×10″.  I was thinking a lot about how Black people, and Black men in particular, are still the target of so much violence from white people.  How all of us have to fight racism and violence.   So while I painted, I decided to turn him into a saint.  We are all in this together, we can all be saints.  It’s not a perfect likeness, but I enjoyed painting him.

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Saint Deago 

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